I don't even know where to begin with this one. It's just so surreal right now. My son Shayne's best friend Kevin, who we've known since just before they both turned 4 (their birthdays are 2 days apart) was arrested yesterday (Wed, 12th) as the head of a cross-border drug ring!!!!!!! It was all over the news today. He's been under investigation (undercover op) for 18 months for dealing/selling prescription drugs that he gets from some 56 year-old from across the border in Ontario. He was arrested selling to an undercover agent! I'm in shock and my heart hurts so bad. I thought of him for years as almost like a son. And now to learn that he's so deep into this and that he could get the max sentence of 20 years AND a Million $$ fine!!!!!! What a total waste of a life. He was arraigned this morning on charges of Conspiracy and Possession. I've been crying for hours for him. And the worst part? All the law enforcement people on the news were saying that there will be more arrests. So, my son will probably be arrested and sentenced to years in jail. I've suspected for a long time now that he's been dealing, and remembering some thing that he's said, it just all fits. AND, they ARE best friends and are always together it seems. Another total waste of a life. Right now I don't even know where Shayne is. He just got out of jail Sept 2nd after serving 5 1/2 months for violating his probation by using. I wouldn't let him come home because I just couldn't risk having the cops raid my home and find drugs and then have my house and car and everything taken away and possibly be arrested. And he probably won't contact me now since he knows I'll turn him in if I know where he is. So he's probably on the run. And Kevin will probably sing like a bird if he thinks he will get a reduced sentence. How does this happen? I mean, how does a beautiful little child with so much going for him end up like this? And I'm asking this in relation to both Kevin & Shayne. Why does a person choose this way of living? And now, to lose possibly the next 20 years of his life? I just don't understand. Just to make some 'easy' money? It just makes absolutely no sense to me. Yeah, it's hard to get into the world, work at a job that you probably hate just to make enough money to put food on the table and clothes on your back. But to risk everything doing it illegally? To risk spending what are the best years of your life behind bars with absolutely no freedoms. Again, it makes absolutely no sense. He - they - are only 20 years old! I wish I could wake up tomorrow and have this all be a dream. I mean, to hear his name said by law enforcement officials on the radio and tv and to see his picture all over the news, to hear that he is the head of this drug ring....and to think of that little 3 year old boy who I knew and loved. I just keep running this through my head over and over and over again. And I want to feel sorry for his mother but I just can't. We were friends for many years, but have been estranged for a few years now. I can't feel sorry for her because of her lifestyle and her pretty much ignoring her children. All 3 of them are way over the edge. I just hurt for Kevin knowing the kind of person he could have been. I hurt for my son too, for the same reason. And I hurt for my son Jason who I know loves his brother, but is also hurting for him. People that choose to live outside the law think that whatever they do only effects them. They just don't seem to understand that it effects everyone that loves them. Whether it be physically, emotionally or mentally, others are always effected.